Explaining myself, this, everything...

WHY? oh, WHY?
So it has been a firm belief of mine - and by 'has been' I mean to say 'has just, upon consideration, become' - that should a person thrust what is, essentially, a personally diary into the very public sphere that is the internet, he or she or it should first properly justify him/her/it-self. This being said, no one - and by 'no one' I mean 'me' - says that such justification can't be convoluted, deranged or just plain stupid. So, in simple terms: yes, I'm going abroad. If you've found yourself here, this is something that you should already know. I will be leaving on September 16th for Norwich, England (North-east of London) by way of New Jersey (an unfortunate one month layover) and Amsterdam (a hopefully productive 5 hour layover). Now, I've never really understood travel blogs until I reached here, this point, where I am now, currently, in work, at exactly noon on a Thursday, the day before moving day - and by 'moving day' I mean 'freedom.' And why this point? Because I've been sitting here, staring at my facebook, an amenity which I have yet to and probably never will master, and thinking about a similar scene of me staring at the same facebook a month and a half from now in a tiny ensuite room in the UV-equivalent of UEA and thinking to myself, FUCK IT! FUCK THESE PEOPLE! Leave me ALONE! I'm in FUCKING EUROPE! Now, seeing as there are several if not tens of people who I don't want to flip the transcontinental bird to just because I'm not prone to communication (just ask my parents), I've decided to make this blog. This is for you, dear friends. Yes, it's also to give my fragile ego space to express itself. I don't deny this. I don't deny an astounding urge to just, you know, let things out. And I realize that this communication is kind of one way and self-absorbed. What about you? Don't I want to know how you are? But here, I've got an idea. You can all start your own "Ian's Traveling" blogs and fill me in. I'll be sure to follow them religiously. Anyway, that's my justification, however convoluted, deranged or just plain stupid.

'Travel' Blog?
So, I'll be honest. I'm a pretty poor guy. I've been scrimping and saving, but with my usually lavish lifestyle of daily fast food runs and alcohol binges, I'm left asking myself, "Where in the hell did it all go?" But I will be traveling. I will be a fiscally conservative traveller, yes. But who's to say that I won't have amazing euro-lite adventures? However, should this devolve into me bitching about how lonely and socially-inept I am, I invite you all to abandon it, me, everything and jump off a cliff.

What's with the fucking title?
Fuck you! It's just a fucking title...or, to be a nice guy who likes to explain things, the two titles of the blog are intended (by me) to be contradictory. Let's face it. I have no clue how this is going to turn out. I could have an awful time. I could have a great time. It's exciting. It's depressing. It's terrifying. Anyway, if anyone from New Jersey is reading this you'll remember how much I idealized Los Angeles, as if being there would fix me and all my problems. If anyone from Los Angeles is reading this, you'll know how that turned out and how I just turned around and approached abroad with the same optimistic idealism. I perhaps tend to think of elsewhere as being better than where I am. And yet, because of this, I never understand the simple joys of just being there. Clever, huh? Anyway, I was stressing out too much about the title and it really fucked with my mind, so I just picked something. And as for the 'fishbowl' of the web address? Well, it's the little ditty that I'm hoping to write while abroad. If nothing else, you'll get some dark, moody passages from it.

Why is your alterego so fucking crude and antagonistic?
I don't fucking know! Get off my back!